Author: haven

People are getting lazy. They see things as a whole, whats starring them right in the face or what they heard or seen. Lately no one seems to think or act like there is a background. Their is a story a bleeding heart behind that pissed off face. We seem to be offended be the obviouse words of hate but use it against the things we do not agree on. We are not speaking our truth when we claim to be offended by a simple opinion of others that does not agree on our back story.

Many to all of us have had very loud influences in our lives starting young. Creating our own thoughts and opinions tend to draw a lot of history from the influence. But what happens when we get older and see and different world the world of our own? Do you continue to follow the path of the ones that influenced us in the first place or do we gather our own facts and learn as we go? To many people see so much fear and creating their own opinion and thoughts which drives them to live a very depressing life of pleasing others.  I’m asking you to create your own passionate thoughts. That as little to no one will approve of.

I’v always seem to choose the loud and exciting things. No matter the consequence I just went seem to be drawn to it all. I would ask my self over and over again why do I jump the gun? Why don’t I think and wait before I jump. I soon realized that was the greatest strength. Because as long as I stayed true to my passions and myself then it will all work out in the end. Which it always did work out in the best of ways. For example school was a huge debate with me. Its something that the government and many adults told me I need to get done. I struggled madly. Not many teachers were interested in keeping and ADHD kid in line as they watched me fall off the deep end. Some would say things in concern but never went out of their way to make me feel as I was doing them any good. Here I am today still have never graduated high school. I worked hard to where I am. I am a manager of a well known busy cafe. Also have become very wealthy from a commercial for coke cola. Which in that case I just kept my mind set open. Knowing everything is set in front of me for me. Its my path. As long as I believe in my self and strength. No government no adult no person can stop me on my journey . Because this universe has proven me multiple times that if I just be my true self and show my true kind heart. Then everything will work out.

Growing up I always found myself as an outsider. Never really keeping the same friends never really connecting with anyone my age. It took a dramatic rumbling experience for me realize that my qualities of making me an outsider was where I felt I belonged.  I noticed when I pushed myself away from all those outside voices that I would find my own voice and values. I was always the child that was dramatic or explosive. But aching for a feeling of wanting to be cool calm and collected. Because most of the people that I saw as that, were not bothered by anything. Then I look back on all the experiences where I was explosive. Seeing how I knew my feelings and my emotions.

I attended this class as I was going through this dramatic change in my lifestyle and mindset. I soon heard all my other classmates stories. Hearing how they have no idea what the fuck they’re feeling and why they feel that way. Here I am jabbering on about how anger I was at some silly thing and could pinpoint every feeling. I soon began to see this explosive side of me one of my greatest strengths. Being able to out right tell you how they are feeling  is something most people fear. As I began to expand my knowledge and  learn to read deep into myself and study my life and patterns. I found that the greatest of all people have been so attracted to this side of myself. Seeing as if they love to be with someone that is truly every part of themselves.

My message through all of this is to never fear the feeling or emotions. We all have them. Even the strongest of all people. The way it seems people run by now is a need to have a feeling of belonging. If you seek this feeling you will never find solitude.  The greatest gift you can give this world is to be your true authentic self. The universe craves for it. We all want to feel important and cared for. By giving the gift of your true self to this world is opening up so many doors to the greater of life. There is no room to blame others for how things end or begin. Give yourself credit for everything you do that you know is true to yourself. Like speaking up about your thoughts and how you feel. Fear is only source that can stop you from living this amazing life. Guess who has the option to listening to the voice of fear and speaking out against it? Thats right, you do! Give the gift of belonging to yourself. Because no one has that power. A great quote I found on a website will stay with me wherever I go. ” No one is you, and that is your power”. Remember you have the option to choose fear or the hurt. Because no one has the power to change YOU unless you change YOU!

Of course I love to hear feedback from any of my writing. Also I know I’m not the best at writing. As I’ve been told my whole life but I’m here to share my ideas and great thoughts to help and heal others.

Even if I may not share the views with someone. I have never felt alone while I’ve been touched with the outside world. It’s as if someone shot a beam of light through my toes up to the higher me. The roots make me feel as if I were home. The energy of whole. 

As this season of fall approaches us, I know many of you feel as if you are alone. A great quote from Dr. Carl Jung helped me understand the feeling of loneliness, “As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am still. Because  I know things and must hint at things that others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part do not want to know. Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible.”

The reason I created this blog was I wanted to be vocalize my thoughts and ideas that I was no longer able to share with my peers. Losing that connections with others. Soon I was the only one I had. Realizing I needed to reach for a more broad surface. It saddens me how people tend to numb or block off the deep meanings behind it all. Mostly because it reaches a sensitive area which immediately  triggers a fear in our brain. With fear as humans we’re wired to run from it. Causing us to really never go beyond what we know. Killing curiosity and thoughts that bring us to grow. If you want to be able to change then  you have to stop refusing to confront the truth. Accept what ever feelings and emotions you have. Because that’s pushing a big part of your truth down to never been seen.

Feeling alone comes with nature. But don’t allow it consume you. Feeding you the idea of this is what you “need” and it will fix everything. The results will only begin to grow the feeling of loneliness stronger. Put yourself in place where you are alone. Because the more you push yourself into situations where you are social you’ll begin to feel more alone with lose of connection. For people to be able  to connect with you then you have to find a connection with yourself. Otherwise you’re going to be searching to long and hard. Ending in sadness and self doubt. Do what you love on your own. Get distracted by your passions and desires. Most importantly love yourself through this transitions and know that whatever the situations may be you are never alone.  Turns out no one knows how to solve your own problems better than you do.

I do apologize for my lack of writing lately.  A series of events have occurred in my life causing me to find little and not time for myself.

As of recently I’ve wanting to do more with my healing strategies and techniques. By doing that I created this blog.  I did it to push myself to motivate me to do what I love. Which is help heal others with a push of positivity and guide them to their true selves. My current job I’ve noticed as my needs are not being met. I feel drained. I no longer feel as myself. That can drive an Empath, like myself to depression and other negative spirals. This blog has given me a sense of confidence. Knowing what I’m doing is affecting others in a positive way.   That’s what I want most of all. I want a job that gives me that opportunity. But professionally I have no records to prove. My goal is to find a job where I can incorporate my guides for healing but also guide others in a spiritual way. Of course involving the great outdoors in it all. Because that’s where I truly strive. I feel as if blast of positive energy and light illuminates my thoughts. Where I am at my best.

People tend to forget or just don’t know that they have the power to change how they feel at any given moment. No matter what is dealt to us we have the option to blame the world (others) or to take upon ourselves to change the way we can perceive it. If you claim to be a victim it will be obvious to the world therefore you will attract the people that will use and abuse you.   Because they see that you are not able to own your own truth no matter what it may be. Taking advantage of your being, energy, and light. Because they know they can get away with it. Without having real consequences. If they saw that you own your own truth, the good the ugly and the worst of worst. Then they could see that you can walk away from them any given time. Which fears them. It shows strength. It all starts with you. Love what you’ve become, there is no one else as unique and wonderful as you are. Just think that there is no one else on this planet that has the same thoughts as you. So embrace every aspect of being different.

Today I had a wonderful moment actual a few moments. Before I go into this I want to state that I have many spiritual beliefs.  Also I’m not trying to push my beliefs on anyone. This is just soloy my experiences. So that being said I had the day off, so I drove to this beautiful glacier fed lake. Being out there itself is just so relaxing and secluded. Massive mountains surrounding you with overhanging misty clouds.   I took a walk and found this perfect piece of driftwood log I could rest up against. So I proceeded and began to open up my book The Empath’s Survival Guide by Judith Orloff. As I settled and started to read. All the sudden there was no wind I felt this warming sensation. It had been cloudy for a couple of days and in town it was pouring rain. Getting deeper and deeper into my read. Soon I got to a sensitive part that struck me with emotions and feelings.  Then I get this approaching sunlight beaming shining on me. Looking up and seeing as the clouds break up right before the sun. I just felt this spotlight. At that time also I was in mid meditation releasing all my energies that weren’t mine.  I think that’s why it brought out lots of emotions. Getting rid of all the gunk that was holding me down and back. Right there and then I knew the universe was trying to reach out to me. Letting me know that I am protected & loved. It was a sign of guidance. I want you all to know that you are never alone the more you ask for guidance the more you will receive on your path. The only way is to release all your gunk. Things that drain your energy. This world this universe every single thing is made up of energies. By keeping things that are apart of your past that you do not hold a good memory with then toss it. All its doing is weighing down your spirit causing you to feel the same as you did when you created that firstenergy with it.   All of that dark energy blocks you from the deeper good.

If you feel down or low lately. I will share with you the things I do to maintain  healthy living with myself. First off you really have to put love behind everything you do . All your intentions are for the greater good. By that means you really have to care. I work in customer service so trust me I know the worst of it. I left everyday knowing I did the best I could not letting a single person ruin my day because people have their own messed up issues and they need someone to get angry out at. Which is okay as long as you know you did the best you could.  As long as you keep a positive upbeat mindset.  Alot of this also includes how much confidence you have. It took me 17 years to really find confidence. I found it when I completely dropped off the map. I got rid of the toxic people in my life. Including being outside helped a bunch. Nature surely does wonders for therapy. I started to read this amazing book called Rising Strong by Brene Brown. It showed how I was blaming the world and others. I wasn’t owning up to my truth. You have to accept everything that happens to you. Because It happened for the reason for you to grow and learn. The cycle will continue until you get the true message and all of it meaning. Look at your fears and the things you think are flaws. Turn them into something that can be positive. People think that if they fix the outside stuff in there life such as the way you look or what car you have is going to change the way you feel on the inside. Which is the total opposite. The outside stuff is easy to fix and that’s why most people go to that first and only.  You really have to get in touch with yourself. Examine everything you do and see the results of how it made you feel. In all honestly life… life is just one big fucking experiment. You’re finding out YOU. And how do you get the best results from an experiment?  You document everything and try new things to make it work. I sort of spun off the topic a bit but the main key is to put love behind everything you do or say.