There is only so much you can do mentally before you realize the change needs to happen physically. Challenges are where we make the best new versions of ourselves. Giving us the growth and tools to help heal. As for me I’ve pushed my clarity of thought for needing this dramatic change. I brainwashed to think I could do it all here. See the same people and do the same thing, where it seems as if you’ve become a robot to your own life. Not wanting or wishing for newer goals. Trying to stay afloat with the old ones that already have been much to accomplished. As you ignore, the body kicks into gear giving you the pain and sickness no one can explain.
About a week ago I caught up with some old friends and also meeting new ones. It just dawned on me. We all have this inspiring image to be. You forget that people are capable of bounding with your deep spirit. People that you shouldn’t expect to come about but as humans we do. Talking about true meaningful depths. Made me come to a realization that my time, energy, and soul power was being wasted on things also people that were not able to provide what my healing needed. So I bit the bullet and did what seemed the hardest to do. I explained that my purpose was not being used here. I’ve grown and lost a person from my everyday job. Giving up and catering to people because it seemed easiest but also expected in my stance.
As I’ve said before I tend to run my best when I make rash decisions. Because without much thought then the less expectations get put into this weighted basket. If the basket falls not much of a disappointment can be emtionally triggered towards your being. So that being sad with no real plan. (As my mom says) “Haven never really has a plan but always ends up somewhere beautiful”. I booked myself a one way ticket to Australia. Not sure where this land will take me or what great imagery will change me. I’m just beyond thrilled that I know I’m finally on the path for striving for more. Bettering myself without ignoring the fears.