Sometimes we get so consumed by this world. Our money, jobs, families and friends that we forget and slowly lose who we are. Almost 8 months ago I was probably at my peak with my relationship with myself but through other influences, stress, and also the feeling of loneliness. That I began to spiral out of my realm of who I was and what true things made me ME. It got to the point where I felt it was to exhausting to zone in on myself and ignore the hurt I have been feeling. I went back to my roots and started to look back on my old research. What made me so strong then? What steps did I take to attract what I wanted?
First thing I knew to do was write about what I love about myself. I started writing then realizing half way through that this wasn’t me anymore. As much as I wanted it to be me. So then I asked for spiritual guidance. Asking my higher power what I could do to find myself again. Then it dinged. I’ve given so much of my time for people that were in need that their energy started to ware off on me. Creating this thought process that wasn’t my own. I’m still the same crazy goofy girl I know just a little more tired and of course more educated by all my experiences that have taught me so much. Its hard to remind yourself that quiet time with your being is a must. You have to ignore the voice saying you don’t have the time or energy to deal with these things. Its crazy how much time we waste by thinking this logic. You could have figured a lot about yourself by now if you didn’t ignore or push that feeling away.
I encourage to write because its the most powerful thing you can do in this lifetime. Its something you can learn from. Making history with yourself and emotions. Its crazy to look back on my journal to hear my voice as I was writing seeing the place I was in. To know I’ve came a long way from that person gives so much confidence in my future. Also you forget as time goes on the little things that help you get back on track. Be brave and write exactly what you wish and need. Time goes on you see everything has a purpose. You see how things just fit perfectly for your certain soul. Never think this universe isn’t on your side because it is. You just have to look deep. It shows plenty record.
Dear Haven,
I want you to know that I’ve missed your posts. Your a unique soul in the fact that you have so much wisdom to give. I really believe you are an old soul and a very familiar one to me at that fact. Whenever you feel lonely imagine I’m cheering you on from the backstage, or lending you some of my energy when you feel tired. I will always stick around because you were very kind to me. I appreciate you sooooo much and I mean that genuinely.
Thank you so much. I appreciate you for caring about my words. Im trying, I’ve finally realized how much somethings are benefiting me and more draining. Pushing that deep feeling away thinking I can keep going as I push underneath. I made a big decision in my life recently. Hoping it will give me guidance of pushing me to the things that make me a better me.