Break Ups

Seems as if a lot of friends coming to me with advice about this topic lately. Mostly because over the course of this year I’ve been up and down and turned around over men. Somehow I managed to stay upbeat and continue to grow from it all. So first off about a year ago I ended my what you could call first serious relationship. We were together for a year and a half. I did something that wasn’t respectful at all that caused our relationship to end. For awhile after that I was ignoring the huge guilt I had put on myself. I started to notice a pattern with all my relationships. I was reading a book at the time “Lightworker Relationships” which reminded me of the laws of attraction. My pattern showed me that I wasn’t changing the way I went into these relationships. My whole thought processes was never clear. So then as I began midway in these romances I would find myself disappointed. Knowing what I knew they just wanted nothing more than what we had. I was attracting people who weren’t so sure about the next decision in their lives which was pretty much how I felt.  As soon as I realized that, I wanted to open my eyes to so much more. So by doing that I started to study all my relationships and I really do mean study. I looked at the person I was when I first met that someone. What my goals were what I was needing and feeling. What was my energy like? I looked at those same things but from what I knew and saw from that certain partner. Soon I was able to see why we were attracted towards one another. Just by that alone I could see what I learned from every one of these relationships. It was able to give me a sense of closure. Through every breakup there is really no room to blame. Everything happens to us for reasons of becoming who you are truly meant to be. There really is no absolute happiness without pain and suffrage.  Through this processes of learning how to be independent again you must give yourself time. To accept the pain you may feel in this moment. I used to think being too emotional was one of my flaws. Honestly it’s the strongest part of me. It reminds me that I can identify how I feel without having to push it deep deep down. Most people don’t know how. They’ve numbed themselves to the point where they can no longer identify. Being aware of your emotions and feelings is already such a huge and vital step. There is definitely a lot more I want to touch up on this topic. As this being my first post on my blog I hope I am able give some light and clarity to you all.