Fear of who YOU are

Growing up I always found myself as an outsider. Never really keeping the same friends never really connecting with anyone my age. It took a dramatic rumbling experience for me realize that my qualities of making me an outsider was where I felt I belonged.  I noticed when I pushed myself away from all those outside voices that I would find my own voice and values. I was always the child that was dramatic or explosive. But aching for a feeling of wanting to be cool calm and collected. Because most of the people that I saw as that, were not bothered by anything. Then I look back on all the experiences where I was explosive. Seeing how I knew my feelings and my emotions.

I attended this class as I was going through this dramatic change in my lifestyle and mindset. I soon heard all my other classmates stories. Hearing how they have no idea what the fuck they’re feeling and why they feel that way. Here I am jabbering on about how anger I was at some silly thing and could pinpoint every feeling. I soon began to see this explosive side of me one of my greatest strengths. Being able to out right tell you how they are feeling  is something most people fear. As I began to expand my knowledge and  learn to read deep into myself and study my life and patterns. I found that the greatest of all people have been so attracted to this side of myself. Seeing as if they love to be with someone that is truly every part of themselves.

My message through all of this is to never fear the feeling or emotions. We all have them. Even the strongest of all people. The way it seems people run by now is a need to have a feeling of belonging. If you seek this feeling you will never find solitude.  The greatest gift you can give this world is to be your true authentic self. The universe craves for it. We all want to feel important and cared for. By giving the gift of your true self to this world is opening up so many doors to the greater of life. There is no room to blame others for how things end or begin. Give yourself credit for everything you do that you know is true to yourself. Like speaking up about your thoughts and how you feel. Fear is only source that can stop you from living this amazing life. Guess who has the option to listening to the voice of fear and speaking out against it? Thats right, you do! Give the gift of belonging to yourself. Because no one has that power. A great quote I found on a website will stay with me wherever I go. ” No one is you, and that is your power”. Remember you have the option to choose fear or the hurt. Because no one has the power to change YOU unless you change YOU!

Of course I love to hear feedback from any of my writing. Also I know I’m not the best at writing. As I’ve been told my whole life but I’m here to share my ideas and great thoughts to help and heal others.